not exactly a matching answer--as i wasnt d/f--i had resigned years before--but attended now and then to appease the wife. However it was announced i couldnt be df as i wasnt a jw--but was to be treated as apostate and treated the same.
Far from suicidal--i was ecstatic--it was just what i wanted. Finally free of the madness. It wasnt till a few years later that my kids shunned me. But that was because of the control freak actions of their mother.